its Raining

Starring : Lee Hyukjae (Eunhyuk), Park Jung-Soo (Leeteuk), Kim Heechul (Heechul)

“Heenim!”

“what?”

“He know something!!” Hyukjae out of the room and I have no idea what is on his mind.

“ya!! Hyukjae ah~” I start following him.

I want to following Hyukjae but something stop me, there’s another letter drop from same place like I found the first one.

I walk little bit and hurry read the letter, again I’m so shock read this one! I want cry right now, I turn around and find Ahjuma behind me.

“Where’s is Hyukjae?” She asking me and starring at me. “Why are you crying?”

“Ahjuma I’m sorry, I just found this and…. And Hyukjae already read it” I said to her and I give it to her Jung-Soo letter.

Next moment I saw Ahjuma crying to. “Where’s Hyukjae now? This is. The day that I’m afraid comes! Hyukjae will know about this” she said I start hug her.

“I’ll go found him Ahjuma.. I will explain this don’t worry” I said to her while let her go from my arms.

“Hyukjae so addict with his brother, once he know that Jung-Soo crying about his winning. But he doesn’t know why… He ask me and his dad…” Ahjuma try to remember her story. “The next thing.. Jung-Soo back smile again and ask Hyukjae to play with him… But Jung-soo…” She’s crying again. “That boy, his father come to him! Angry because he let Hyukjae see him crying… And.. He punch his son” Ahjuma cover her face. “Its always like this, I can do anything.. Bcoz he doing this when I’m not here.. But I love Jung-Soo, all I can do is give him love and treating his scar”

Ahjuma sit in front of me crying like a baby remembering his son. “His dad love Hyukjae so much bcoz his illness and blame everything to Jung-Soo, he push Jung-Soo to be a runner! Bcoz he knows his lovely child Hyukjae can’t do it for him, Jung-Soo never like it he love drawing and his father think drawing is for woman! Man should do some sport thing.. But this all was so wrong.. Until the day both of them die” she end up her story.

“Ahjuma.. Don’t cry..”

“I have to find Hyukjae! You should help me find him!” She asking me to go with her.

Finally both of us running try to find Hyukjae, in the fork of street in front of Heenim’s store we split out to. I running to the lake, I think Heenim was there and hope Hyukjae too.

My eyes searching for Heenim or Hyukjae, at least if I found Heenim first I will tell him that Hyukjae angry with him now, because he already know about his brother.

“Heenim oppa!!!” I found his just arrive at the lake with his motorcycle. Heenim smiling and wave his hand to me, but Hyukjae come and punch him. “Oppa!!” I’m running to get to them.

Hyukjae looks so angry his eyes is turn red. “Hyukjae stop it!” I try to pull Hyukjae body while he punch Heenim, Heenim Fell on the asphalt now.

“You! You know everything!!” Hyukjae start yelling, he stand in front of me that covering Heenim’s body. “Why everyone lie to me?! Why no one tell me the truth that my brother kill him self! Are you try to be a hero! And cover everything??!!”

“Hyukjae please stop it!” I yelled to him.

“You shut up!” Now he yell to me.

“Yes I know!!” Heenim try to sit now and give me signal to go, but I won’t. “I know everything about Jung-Soo that you never know!!!”

“I am his brother! I know everything…”

“You don’t!” Heenim cut Hyukjae word. “Everyone hiding everything from you!! Why you never realize about this?!, why you don’t know that Jung-Soo hate to be a runner! He better do sketch than go to practice?!! You even didn’t know that he HATE his father!!”

“SHUT UP!!” Hyukjae punch Heenim again and Heenim doesn’t want to hit Hyukjae back. “You don’t know him!” Hyukjae screaming now, and I see he’s crying. He was crying bcoz he doesn’t know everything bcoz people around him hiding everything to him. “Why you don’t hit me back!!” Hyukjae stop hitting Heenim but pull Heenim T-Shirt.

“Because you are Jung-Soo brother!”

“Aarrgghh!!” Hyukjae’s hands up now, ready to punch Heenim again.

“Because the day when you call me Hyung!! Is the best day of my life!!!” Hyukjae shock listen about Heenim’s words, he move back now. “Because I promise to Jung-Soo will take care of you! Jung-Soo never let you sad if he still alive!! Jung-Soo is my bestfriend!” Heenim Lost to control emotion, he cries angry at the same time.

“Jung-Soo is the one who never let us alone! And because of him I believe there’s someone like me, someone that feel alone, so we can full fill each other! I’m lost without him!” Heenim crying loud and won’t wake up from asphalt from the moment. Heenim try to sit now “I want sacrifice my life…. to see him alive again! even just once! I’m bad person!” Heenim screaming.

“Oppa” I cry listen what he said.

Hyukjae freezing in his place, maybe he just realize that someone have the same feel like him to. Feeling lost without his brother, Hyukjae face turn into unwell face.

Heenim try to wake up with a lot of blood out from his nose. “Mianhae… MIANHAE!!” Heenim start yelled again feeling guilty, “at the day…. When Jung-Soo died……. He kill him self…. The worst day of my life…..” Heenim lost his balance and down to aslphalt again. Both of them crying, “its all my fault!! Mianhe!!” He wake up again and looks like wanna go with his motorcycle, Hyukjae freezing at his place.

“Heenim don’t go” I said to him. “You not able to drive with this situation” but looks like Heenim doesn’t listen to me and he just go “Heenim oppa!! Oppa come back!!” I’m calling him back.

“Let him go! I don’t wanna see his face!” Hyukjae said to me, I turn around and find Hyukjae confuse face.

“You don’t understand Hyukjae, that boy has feeling so lonely until the day when he meet ur brother!”

“STOP IT!!” Hyukjae scream at me. “I don’t wanna hear such a thing like that again!”

“Don’t you realize ur brother…”

“You don’t know my brother!” He cut my words. “You never meet him! And don’t pretend like you know him!”

“You just scare Hyukjae…” I said to him, walk into him, we are both starring each other. “You scare if you know that after all this time no one tell you the truth!”

“No its not! My brother! My family is happy! And he always happy when he win! when my father give him a gift when…”

“Did u ever seen where all the gift?!” My turn to cut his words. “Did you see his smiling face when your father around him or when he got practice? Did you see he draw your father face? Even if just one?!” Hyukjae face turn into scare face and I know he think so hard right now.

“No… Its impossible!” Hyukjae cover his face, maybe realize something. “No its impossible!!” He said it again. “Why you act like you know him better than me??!!”

“Because my dad told me sketch is from our heart! It doesn’t mean something for someone else! But it means a lot for the artist!, simbol, object, color, shadow everything! They have meaning!”

“I don’t know what are you talking about!”

“This is what I’m talking about Hyukjae!” I picked up Jung-Soo sketch book that Hyukjae give it to me when I came to his house at the first time. “Here!, open the last page!” I tell him.

He grab it from me and hurry open the last page. Hyukjae start crying and mad at the same time, Jung-Soo write ‘this book belongs to Jung-Soo and full by people who makes me happy’.

“There is another letter, maybe u want to read it” I give him the last letter that I found on his brother room.

Hyukjae read the letter and he cover his mouth. “Why there’s no one tell me the truth?” Hyukjae feel down now, I give him hug. Both of us is standing on the cold asphalt tonight, wish I can share his feel, wish I meet his brother even just once so I know how it feel to lost without him too.

30 mins later me and hyukjae running into hospital, Ahjuma call me and she said police found Heenim at the street bcoz his motorcycle hit a big truck. I’m afraid so afraid but Hyukjae hold my hand until in front of the door and we saw Ahjuma standing there with Heenim Grand mother.

“Ahjuma what’s happen?” I ask her, starring her face scare and my Mom there too hug me from back like try to make me strong. “Ahjuma please tell me” I ask her again really scare right now.

“Police said they found Heenim body on the street, they believe Heenim lost his balance and didn’t see the truck…” Ahjuma stop her story.

“Honey don’t cry” my mom said to me still hug me. “You must be strong honey” I can’t hold my tears, Heenim like my brother now and I won’t lost him.

Hyukjae starring at me for a moment and turn in to his mom. “Umma.. What should we do now? How about Heenim condition?”

“He lost a lot of blood, hospital try to find blood with AB negative, we keep looking and….”

“Let me be the one who give him blood!” Hyukjae cut his mother words, Ahjuma watching her sons carefully. “Just don’t hiding anything again umma.. I’m big now…. Let me share my blood for him, Heenim is my brother too”

I see Ahjuma tears little bit, then Hug her son, finally she agree. Next moment Hyukjae follow his mother.

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April 13rd

Me and Heenim agree today we will be a nice boy, so we go to donor our blood. Someone with AB negative will need our help. But when I’m done give my blood nurse said that my blood type is O, I don’t understand what happen. As far as I know, Hyukjae is AB negative and I am his brother so it suppose to be same. I ask nurse to check it twice, maybe she’s wrong mention my blood type. But once again she believe my blood type is O.

When I get home, I find umma sit in our living room and I’ll go ask her. But she’s cry when I asking this. I ask her what happen, finally she start tell me a story.

It start on 19th Nov when I was baby, someone name “Park Hyosung” dies because of car crash and her babies give to her little brother, well.. Its my dad. Actually my dad is her stepbrother.

Story begin because his dad, my Grandpa loves his daughter a lot but he didn’t realize that his daughter have a bad manor. She so happy if watch my dad suffer! She kick him! She hit him! And she lying when they parents ask her what happen with dad.

Dad have a dream to be a runner, but he can’t do it bcoz his stepsister give him a lot of scar. Finally when he got me as his son, he take a Vengeance. He push me to be a runner, bcoz his own son can do it for him.

Honestly! If he talk with me, treet me like his own son. I will do it with my best! But this is so wrong! He blame everything to me bcoz something wrong on his pass??!! Geezz!! I’ll be ok if he put me on Orphanage!!

It just bcoz I love Hyukjae and umma I stay here. I keep quite bcoz I have a bestfriend like Heenim, who knows me better, someone that I can be my self when I around him, someone who believe me that I’m not the only one who feel this loneliness. I promise Heenim to share my family to love and that’s why I trust him, he will love umma and Hyukjae like his own family.

Dad I mean that guy begin this scar from the start! I promise someday! Not because of my biologist mom, but for my self! I’ll take my own revenge.

Jung-Soo

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“Hyung…”

“Hyung…”

“Hyung…”

Slowly Heenim open his eyes, its been 2 days after the accident. “Hyung… Open your eyes” this voice finally makes Heenim eyes open.

“You?” Heenim surprise see Hyukjae and me standing beside his bed on the hospital.

“Hyung.. We’ve been here for 2 days waiting for you” Hyukjae smiling to Heenim.

“What did you call me?” Heenim doesn’t believe what his ear listen to, or maybe just want to make sure about what he listen.

Hyukjae look at me for the moment. “I’m calling you hyung.. You are my hyung right?” Said Hyukjae.

“Haish jinja!” Heenim looks so happy with Hyukjae reason and I can see his eyes want cry but he hiding it. “I thought you angry with me”

“Ya.. Hyung you really need some rest. I think you have overload imagination” said Hyukjae, then both of us laughing.

“Oppa get well soon ok. Let’s play fireworks again” I said to Heenim and smiling to him.

“What ever. I want back to sleep now” he said and close his eyes.

“Hyung!! You don’t say thanks to us!”

“Should I thanks both of you?, you just came here and I can’t sleep, both of you so noisy!”

“We makes you feel better!”

And both of them now hv a close conversation like nothing happen from the past. I’m happy for them, with this way Heenim doesn’t feel alone anymore, even Hyukjae have brother again.

Today is the last day on Summer, I’m already finish gussy up. “NaaRaa ya.. Heenim ssi and Hyukjae already here!” I heard Mom calling me. “I’m on my way Mom” I answer her, grab my bag and finally comes out.

“Annyeong” I greet both of them.

“Let’s go” Heenim grab my hand as usual.

“Hyung!, she’s my girlfriend don’t hold her hand!” Said Hyukjae and hold my right hand beside Heenim grab my left hand.

“Ya! She’s my fave Dongsaeng!”

“But she’s my girl!”

“Haisshh!! Both of you!” Finally I get dizzy because of them. “Don’t fighting ok, here my left hand for my pretty Oppa” I smile to Heenim and he smiling back to me. “My right hand for my beloved boyfriend, always..” Hyukjae smile to me. “Ok does we ready?”

“Ready!!” Both of them answer me.

“Let’s go!” I said and we walking on the street now.

Today is the day that Jung-Soo passed away a few years ago. So we will go to his grave, actually its not his really grave, Heenim make some tombstone near the lake right after Jung-Soo passed away, so we go there pray and tell him nice story. Heenim believe if three of us comes together, Jung-Soo gonna be so happy.

We on Jung-Soo grave now, so one by one pray for him, start with Hyukjae, I can see his smile and talking likes his brother was there in front of him.

“Hyung I’m here… Doctor said my heart is better now, I turn into a strong man like u” Hyukjae smiling. “Its been so long until I call your bestfriend Hyung again…. Mianhae I don’t believe him, but I trust him like I trust you now” he take a breath. “Ya Hyung.. I meet someone who love sketch and rainy days like you, she’s my girlfriend… Well, I will take care umma… Still wish you were here now” he touch Jung-Soo tombstone and smile.

Next is Heenim he smiling to Jung-Soo. “Ya Jung-Soo, he called me Hyung again” softly Heenim start talking. “Grandma said she will pray for you too, your mother safe my life and Hyukjae share his blood for me…” Heechul have little laugh. “Just like you wanted right?, me and your brother become the real brother, bcoz his blood flow on my body now” silent for the moment. “I’ll back soon… Keep watching us from your place” Heenim smiling and he just end his words, then he pray.

“Its your turn” Hyukjae said to me.

“Me?.. No.. He didn’t know me” I explain him.

“Hmm.. Don’t be shy” Hyukjae ask me again, but I keep on my place said no.

“Just little pray ok” Heenim smile at me then he push me.

I stare Jung-Soo tombstone and pray for him. Smile for a while “I’m done” I said.

“That’s it?” Heenim ask me.

“Yup hihi” smiling to both of them. “Ice creaaaaammm~~” start whine to Heenim.

“Hish this kid! Go ask ur boyfriend!”

“Hyukjae aah~~”

“Hahaha” Hyukjae laughing. “Just do it to him. Its funny when you whine to me”

“Ya! Don’t run at this situation!” Heenim said to Hyukjae. “She’s your girl” Heenim start fighting again with Hyukjae.

I keep walking left them both. “Ya!! Both of you hurry!” I yelled at them and keep walking, while they keep talking about me.

Dear Jung-Soo oppa, I am so happy it feels like my dad give me new blank canvas so I can draw my story. Being here near with your fave people who always makes you happy, is the greatest moment that God send for me. Oppa honestly, if there any second change I want to know you better, I heard that you really good man.

Did you know oppa, if we meet before the accident, I will tell you that, your life is so perfect, all you have to do is talk to your dad and said what you wanna to said. Sometimes parents won’t listen because they think we agree with them. But if you scare and think that you can’t control your emotion when you talk with him, I will accompany you there until he understand.

Jung-Soo oppa, I don’t know if its right or not, deep inside my heart I love you so much. This life that I walk in is your life before and I promise you, I will watch them, so these eyes is gonna replace your eyes. Rest in peace oppa, may God with you.

-the end-

author : Naa.Z

special thx to Super Junior and rainy days.

this is a fanfic of  Super Junior cr by Naa.Z 2010

Starring : Lee Hyukjae (Eunhyuk), Park Jung-Soo (Leeteuk), Kim Heechul (Heechul)

“dont look at me” Heenim cover his face.

“its Ok Heenim-Sshi” I stand up and hug him from behind. “sometimes we cry to feel better” hug him warmly and lil bit guilty because I made him cry, its rare for me to see a boys crying.

This is the end of tonight, Heenim told me a lot of story about him and I find him feel so lonely, so I decide to call him “Oppa” since I dont have a brother. My Umma angry because im coming home late, she’s starvin waiting her cake.

Next day my Mom said Heenim left us some free breakfast and milk from his store and it happend again for 3 days after, but my Mom said we should pay this, so I came to the store but Heenim angry with me. He said its free for his Chibbie Dongsaeng, haha… I think I start like him, but hide this from Hyukjae.

I knocked Hyukjae’d door and his Mom open the door for me. “annyeong Ahjuma, is Hyukjae here?” I ask her.

“ya of course… he’s inside his room, you can go there” she said and smile to me. “owh.. and im going to hospital, would you like to accompany him?”

“sure” im always happy if Ahjuma asking me this.

“ok then.. I left some Ice cream on the refrigerator if you want some”

“neh… thank you” bow to her and she’s left.

I go to Hyukjae’s room but I dont find him, so I walk to the back of his house and finally find him singing with play guitar, sitting on his white sofa. For a moment im watching his singing, he sang a song from Jason Mraz – im yours, I like this song and Hyukjae voice make this song have another taste.

Hyukjae realize im coming, so he smile, embarrassed. “I dont know you come” he said put his guitar next to him.

“well… maybe if you know i come, I will lose a chance to hear you singing”

He lowered his head shy for a moment. “what is that?” Hyukjae point something that I bought.

“owh.. this is for you” I said and give him a box that I carry from my home.

while his open my box im sitting next to him. “wawh” he muttered happy when he know what is it. “you made this?” Hyukjae asking me with happy face.

“yup… its a blanket to keep you warm during cold weather” I tell him. “beside, you will remember your Hyung right? I made this from you and your hyung old tees” I explain him, while he use it. “like it?” I ask his opinion.

“a lot!” he said and starring at me. “gomawo” he smile.

“no biggie” I said and smile back to him.

“hmmhh… little curious” he said.

“ye?”

He scratched his head. “do.. hmm… do you have a boyfriend?” he ask and im shock he asking me about this.

“well… I dont have” I answer him. “not even at my old place” we both laughing. Rain began to fall, im smiling. “its rare to see raining on summer right?”

“ya”

Silent for a moment both of us watch raining. “I love Rainy day, because I was born on rainy day” I said, Hyukjae watch me with his smile. “what?”

“its that true?, you was born on rainy day?” he asking me and im nod. “haish… my brother was born on rainy day to and he love rainy day” he tell me.

thinking of something for a while. “so did your Hyung teach you how to dance in the rain?”

“no…”

“come on I’ll teach you” I wake up and pull his hand.

“no I can” he said.

“you can… you just ashame..” Im smiling and trying hard to pull him. Finally Hyukjae follow me and we start going crazy dance in the rain.

Laughing together in the middle of the rain, like we thank God that he give us lovely raining on this day. we start dance slow now, our body close each other and I can see Hyukjae face clearly.

“its embarrasing” he said.

“no its not” I said.

He smile and flick my hair back. “do you like some one?” he ask me.

“should I answer it?” I ask him back, I think he know the answer. He bite his lips while he starring at me. “dont do that again in front of me” I said embarrased.

“why?” he smile and I smile back to him. he put his hand on my neck, his face getting close to my face and then he kiss me. Smooth and warm kiss, he even didn’t said that he loves me, but this kiss have a lot meaning for us.

on lake in the night, its a beautiful scenery we can see stars from here. “so both of you are officialy dating?” Heenim ask me, he sit next to me with a bottle of soda on his right hand.

“I think so” I said, I just tell him a story that Hyukjae kiss me this afternoon. “what do you think Oppa? you are boy, you must be have a meaning if you do this to your girlfriend”

“geezz!!… I dont have a girlfriend” Heenim laugh. “haisshh!! love stuff make me feel dizzy” he said and drink his soda. “its good for you isn’t it?” He scratched his head. “can we change topic now?, I really dont know what to do, and I dont have an advice for you” he said and I see his confuse about this.

“haha… Oppa go find a girlfriend! you are pretty”

“yes I know” both of us are laughing. “what time is it?” he ask me.

“its 10PM” I said after check it from my watch.

“lets go, i’ll take you home” He said.

“umh..”

“what?” Heenim ask me.

“im afraid if Hyukjae is see us together and he will mad” I answer him, and he starring at me lil angry.

“even its hard to take my chibbie dongsaeng home” he grumbled. “ok… you walk first I will watching you from behind, just to check that you home safely”

“thats a good Idea!!” I give him a thumbs.

“lets go” he finish his soda and we start walk at home.

Today is another day for me to spending time with Hyukjae at his house, I just try to draw him when he sing me a song with his guitar on his room.

“let me see your draw” he said after finish his song. “is this me?” he ask me and im nod. “am I look that handsome?” he laugh.

“no you not handsome”

“but you like me right?” he smile and im get embrassed.

“hmm… my Umma cook a lot of food tonight, would you come to my house?, dinner maybe?” I ask him, we sit next to me and I saw him confuse. “what? you can?”

“well… I cant tonight I have to fix a lot of things” he said, and im mope, so he draping his hand to my shoulder.

“hey there’s something in my eyes” he said and I look into his eyes, there’s nothing on his eyes but he smiling at me, then he kiss me again like he do yesterday.

while we kissing I grab his shoulder to, suddenly this kissing turn into hmm.. like you know. the next moment I heard some one yelled “Oppa~~ Oppa~~” so we stop kissing and I starring at him.

“who’s that?” I said and Hyukjae wake up from his sit with lil smile confuse at his face.

someone open the door before Hyukjae open it. I saw a girl shorter than Hyukjae with long hair and so thin. “Oppa im looking for you!!” She said and look at me “are you NaaRaa? the girl next door?” im shock she knows who I am.

“can you please wait outside?” Hyukjae said to this girl but I think this girl wont listen.

“hi.. im Yoona!!” she said greet me.

“annyeong” I greet her back. “so who are you?” corious.

“im his…” Hyukjae cover Yoona mouth.

“is that something wrong Hyukjae?” I said and smell bad mood, and wake up from sit now.

“no its not! aaargghh!!” Yoona bite Hyukjae’s hand.

“Oppa said you draw him… and would you like to join us on dinner tonight?” Yoona ask me with big smile on her face. “i’ll cook!! I always cook for Hyukjae’s dinner every night” she said again.

“everyday?” I repeat she said lil angry.

“is not like you think” Hyukjae try to control my emotion.

“no Hyukjae I want to ask her ok!” got angry now. “so you cook dinner for Hyukjae every night?, how nice of you… so.. tell me are you Hyukjae fiance or girlfriend of something like that?.. wife maybe?”

“ya I thing” She smile.

“what??” Hyukjae ask her. “what u do that for?” while Hyukjae asking this girl im already upset and take of my jacket. “where are you going?, I can explain” Hyukjae said to me.

“what??.. She cook for your dinner?… I think I know the reason why you never want to come when I asking you on dinner” I starring his eyes angry. “excuse me Mr.Liar you block my way” I said to Hyukjae because he block the door.

“you..”

“EXCUSE ME!” I repeat my word again.

“Oppa.. let her go.. beside I cook you again.. what you want me to…” I can hear another words from her mouth, but the things that I realize is, he didnt even come after me.

I can think anymore, just walk out his house and down the street. at the fork in the road I saw Heenim’s store, so I get in and Granny greet me “welcome..” she said.

“owh Chibbie!!” Heenim is there to and greet me.

“Oppaa~~” I whine and start crying, I dont care if another customers starring at me now.

“sshh~~ dont whine here” Heenim said to me but he still stand behind his cashier desk.

“ahh~~ Oppaaa~~ uhaaaaaaaaahh~~” this whine louder than the last and really crying right now.

“hurry take her out from here… I think she need you” Granny said to Heenim, so Heenim come to me. “dont cry lil girl, Heenim is yours now”

“Granny!! u used wrong sentence” Heenim correct her.

“haishh.. go go” Granny asked us to go.

“come on” Heenim pull me out from the store and take me with his motorcycle.

now we are standing in the bridge, while I was crying Heenim give me some hug. finally I stop crying and start tell him a story.

“really?, she said that she is his fiance?” Heenim frowned confuse. “I never knew about her” he said and try to remember something but no result. “Ahjuma never say something about her” he said again.

“maybe you dont know about her Oppa”

“no.. no..” Heenim starring at me. “Ahjuma will tell me about anything, on her eyes im like the second Jung-Soo” he said. “just dont worry about it ok” heenim stroked my hair.

“hmmm Oppa”

“what?”

“look at the stars toninght, there are shining so bright”

“neh” Heenim look at the stars now.

“can you buy me firework?”

“whatt?” Heenim shocked. “fireworks?” he repeat what i said. “what for?”

“Oppa~~ im so sad now and i’ll be happy if we play fireworks” give him my sadly eyes.

“haisshh this kid!!”

“oppaaa~~~~” start whine at him again. “Opppaaaaaaa~~~”

“ok ok!!” finally he give up. “wait here i’ll go buy fireworks. ck! i just can believe what im doing now” he said and ride his motorcycle.

10 munites later he back with a bunch fireworks on his hand and we start play it. I feel so happy now, when I live at Japan my dad buy me some fireworks too, I was younger that time. suddenly I see Heenim smile and looks like he dont feeling alone anymore, but I think he will happy if Hyukjae call him Hyung again.

Heenim realize that its almost 1 AM, so he will take me home now. street is quiet now, we just pass through Heenim store and he decide to park his motocycle, so we can walk into my home.

“WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH HER??!” someone yelled at us.

“Hyukjae ah~” I just realize Hyukjae accelerate the pace towards us. “no Hyukjae wait!!” but its to late, Hyukjae just punching Heenim face. “stop it!!” I push Hyukjae far from Heenim. “are you ok?”

“yup im ok” Heenim said. “ya!! why are you angry??!!” Heenim yelled to Hyukjae. “did you care about her?! ya!! answer me!!”

“you SHUT UP!!!” Hyukjae ready give another punch to Heenim.

“STOP IT!!!” I yelled both of them and they start starring at me. “its ok” I said to Heenim and give him a signal to go.

“If I see She crying again!! because of you!!” Heenim point Hyukjae. “you will regret it!!”

“what??!!” Hyukjae step forward.

“stop it!”I said push Hyukjae again while Heenim get in his store.

“whats wrong with you?” Hyukjae asking me and I just walk like i dont listen his words. “I thought you promise me dont get with him!” he said and pull my hand. “im talking to you!”

“let me off!” let go of my hand, starring at him madly. “what do you think I am?” I ask him, he just quiet. “what do you think I am Hyukjae?, easy girl that you can kiss her as you like?, Is that what I am in your eyes??!”

“look, I said I can explain…”

“I get it already!!” i cut his words. “you have someone who call you ‘Oppa’ and she cooked everynight for you!! and the bad things is!! you hide her for me!!” I was so angry now.

“I just dont want to make you mad!”

“but hide her is made me mad!!” we yelled each other now. “I was crazy about you… and I do adore you!” calm down my self. “just let me go if you dont like me” turned my body and re-walk.

“she one of my school friend!! our family is close each other!” Hyukjae try to explain behind me. “she like me.. so, she always following me every time! i just can let someone sad because I reject her!!”

“so what do you think about my feelings??!!!” stop walking and deal with him again. “I was crying!” starring at him, start crying again. “Hyukjae ah… dont play with my heart please, its better you give me a scar so it will be recover again than break my heart, it will last forever” i said, he just standing in front of me. “we can be good friend…”

“I just dont know how to said ‘NO’ to her”

“ya.. you better accept her, she’s nice” I said and turn walk again.

“but I did!! I just reject her!! when you walk out my door!” he said it louder. “I was thinking about you over and over, I dont know what to do if you not around. all I wanted was you!!”

“its easy to say that!”

“stop walking!! look at me!!” I just keep walking and dont look at Hyukjae. “NaaRaa SARANGHAE!!!” I stop walking when Hyukjae said that and then he hug me from behind. “the only one that I’ll never let hurt its you, no matter when I look around all i wanted to see its you”

“Hyukjae…” speechless I even cant think something.

“stay with me” he said softly.

Just realize he have same feelings like me, and this night end with his word, the words that I wanted to hear before this summer ends.

next day Heenim send me text message ‘I really want to kick your boyfriend because my handsome level decreased! I have one panda eyes now!’ I reply him ‘neh.. oppa looks more handsome now.. kekekeke’. Im  so glad find nice people on this new country.

Im at Jung-soo room now, Hyukjae let me see his collection once again when we clean up this room. His mom agree with me to keep Jung-Soo’s artwork at safe place, since Jung-Soo passed away this room never change.

Learn one by one about his artwork, I do believe if Jung-Soo at my class, my teacher will love him and asking him some scholarship in Italy. Jung-Soo’s wall is covered by grey wallpaper, some of them start to look weathered and torn.

“owh, what is this” im talking to my self when I pull Jung-Soo lake paint, behind that there’s something its like a paper stuck in the torn wallpaper. I took it and I believe its a letter, I decide to read it.

………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

summer 13th

its Jung-Soo talking, I believe if you read this im already dead. I wake up this morning and my body shaking, im not scared but im to brave. I am strong man, I will protect my brother, my umma, even Heenim from that guy!

and this is it! I will tell him the truth! today I will tell him the truth!! I wanna be an artist not an athlete. im not his horses, he can use me anymore, im sick of it!! thats enough! I cant control my emotion again!!. but if he do answer me with wrong answer!! I promise i will take revenge and clear my list!!

I think im crazy, I just keep something at my head! and never let it comes out. He didnt realize, I have two personality and when a bad side comes, he will regret it.

………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

I covered my mouth now and there’s another paper, its note that Heenim told me, a gun note. two name on it first is his Dad name and second is his name. This is Jung-Soo last letter before he passed away, but looks like he already knew about this. My body start shaking scare, and look around to his sketch try to find something.

“what are you doing?” Hyukjae come into the room. “are you crying?” Hyukjae ask me again, I dont know why but my eyes start crying.

“im fine” I said wipe my tears.

“what is that?” Hyukjae point Jung-Soo letter.

“don’t..”

“let me see” Hyukjae pull that letter and read it for a while. after that he starring at me, but i can see his eyes confuse, mad, angry, empty, I can see it on his eyes. “where you get this letter?”

“behind that wallpaper” I answer him with scary voice.

“Heenim!”

“what?”

“He know something!!” Hyukjae out of the room and I have no idea what is on his mind.

“ya!! Hyukjae ah~” I start following him.

author : Naa.Z

special thx to Super Junior and rainy days.

this is a fanfic of  Super Junior cr by Naa.Z 2010

Starring : Lee Hyukjae (Eunhyuk), Park Jung-Soo (Leeteuk), Kim Heechul (Heechul)

Summer…

its summer night, my parents and me just move on South Korea. My mom pick one simple house in Seoul. honestly i like our old house in Franklin USA, but my Dad have to moved here by his office.

I was sitting in the balcony with my sketch book and realize that my neighbor is singing, i’m smiling because i think his voice is good. finaly his come out from his room to his balcony. our balcony is dealing, he smile and bow. “annyeong” he said, i get up from my wooden chair and bow “annyeong”

“new here?” he said and I nodded “owh.. my Umma said that we have new neighbor” he smile. “i’m Hyukjae by the way” he start introduce him self, this boys is tall, slim with his brown sort hair and his thin lips smiling at me.

“i’m NaaRaa… my Umma is American but my Appa is Korean” i don’t know why I telling him. “I like your Voice” and he lil bit shy.

“thank’s” he look at my sketch book, “are u draw something?”

“yup, I love Illustration”

“draw me someday ok” he said and lil laugh both of us. “well… nice to meet you, sorry because im bothering you with my bad voice”

“no its not, sing for me someday ok”

“yup” he’s scratching his head, embarrassed. “gotta sleep now..”

“ya me too”

“bye” he waved his hand and I do it the same thing to him.

next day I found some lake near by my house, this lake verry inspire me with something, beside I don’t know what to do, its not my country. Slowly i heard bicycle bell ringing, I turn around and its Hyukjae the boy next door. He smiling at me and parking his bicycle.

“annyeong” I said when he running at me.

“annyeong” he bow and now he standing in front of me, so I can see his browny eyes. “do you like this lake?, its my fave”

“really?, I like this place”

“come to draw something?

“no, actually I just don’t know what to do. since I was new here” I explain to him. “how about you?”

“nothing to do, just walk around and found you here” he smilling. silent at the moment and i realize something.

“do you believe love at the first side?” I don’t know what to do, he smile really killing me. “OMO!! i’m sorry” hurry make situation back to normal because he start confusing.

“its ok” he said and his eyes turn into scaried eyes watch something behind me.

“Ya! Hyukjae!!” call someone behind me and I turn around. “have a new girlfriend huh?!”

“what do you want?!” Hyukjae ask this white boy with his red hair.

“nothing… Do you want to introduce me to her?” ask him and staring at me. “hi my…”

“ya! stop it!” Hyukjae pushing him.

“what’s wrong with you?!” this boy laughing and his cold eyes staring at Hyukjae. “don’t you dare with me! remember that!” and he left just like that.

“who is he?” I ask Hyukjae lil scare because i’m afraid Hyukjae still angry.

“his name is Heenim” Hyukjae answering me. “just don’t get closer with him”

“ok” just courious and confuse lil bit.

Me and Hyukjae already close now, even we just meet 1 weeks but I think we are very close friend. well… I think I like him more than just a friend, but I don’t want to mess up everything so I just keep silent about my feelings to him.

this Sunday I dedicide to go out side and find new idea to draw something. when I open my turnstile “annyeong” someone greet me and I know who’s voice is it, one of my fave voice.

“annyeong, Hyukjae Shi” smile to him.

“where do you like to go?”

“umh… i’m trying to find some idea” I said and raise my draw book a bit, so he will knew what I mean.

“oh.. well.. come to my place, hope u get some idea” Hyukjae smiling and I think its better idea to spend 1 day with him again.

“ok” I agree him and follow him enter his house.

Hyukjae bring me to one room and I so excited with this room. All of the wall is full by sketch, in the corner of the room there was a paint. “I know this” I said and run lil bit so I can point the paint. “this is my fave lake!”

“yup you right” Hyukjae justify me. “and my Brother fave lake too and you see… this is his room, all of this sketch is belong to him”

“really??, can I meet him??” but when I ask him about this his face turn into sad face.

“i’m sorry.. he’s passed away about 5 years ago”

“owh… Mianhae… sorry to hear that”

“its ok” Hyukjae back to smile again. “I love all his sketch, he’s an artist and an athlete too.. err.. Runner, best Runner on the city” I can see he so proud with his brother on his eyes. “neh..” He grab some sketch book from the table. “this is one of my fave, he draw about his close people near him, lets sit here” Hyukjae and me sit on the wooden floor with blue carpet on it.

Hyukjae start open one by one this book and describe anyone who is in it. They Umma, Him self, a postman, a milkman, his friends when he was little, his cousin, his grandma, grandpa, and one page there was Heenim when he was young.

“is that Heenim?” I ask Hyukjae.

“yup he is” before I ask Hyukjae start explain something. “that boy is my brother bestfriend, he always come here everyday and call my brother like ‘Jung-soo ah, Jung-soo ah’ so he came with a candy that he brought me” Hyukjae smiling “so my brother said ‘go say thanks to Heenim and call him Hyung to just like you call me’ and I go said to that boy ‘Hyung Kamsahamnida, please bought me candy everyday’ I said” he swallowed. “thats a verry long story, just because of something, I would not call him hyung again” Hyukjae stroking my hair “promise me dont stay closer to him ok” he smile.

“umm” nod agree. we start open another page.

“Hyukjae-ah” his Umma call him and appeared in the doorway. “owh.. NaaRaa is here, annyeong..”

“annyeong Ahjuma” I greet her.

“is there something Umma?” Hyukjae ask his mom.

“dont forget to clean ur room ok.. im going to hospital now” this pretty woman smilling and go away.

“ur Umma is pretty” I said, Hyukjae smiling and I already Know that his smile is from his mom. “oh.. why I dont find ur Appa sketch on this book. I wanna see him..”

“hmmh… I dont know why my brother never draw his face” lil confuse on his face.

“I see” nod. “hey… let me help you clean your room” smiling at him and wish he agree.

“its that ok?, I thought…”

“haishh.. lets go!!” cut he’s word before he finish him, finally Hyukjae agree with me.

we start clean up his Room, actually this room is already clean so we just make it more clean than before. “Hyukjae ah.. what is this” I find some box with a bunch T-shirt on it.

“owh.. well.. me and my brother always have same T-shirt when we are kids… I keep it here so my Umma could not throw it away.. haha” he laugh.

“hmmhh” I think of something.

“what?” he read something on my smile.

“can I keep this?”

“for what?” Hyukjae laugh.

“just leave it to me! agree?”

“well…. ok.. but don throw it ok!”

“deal” smilling and bought that box to my home later. “do you want eat some dinner at my house?, ur Umma is working right?”

“mianhae… I cant… hmm… I have something to do” Hyukjae smiling but I think he hide something.

“ok then” I said and lift the box containing the t-shirts. “I go now! bye Hyukjae”

“bye” he said.

One day my mom asking me to buy some cake on little store at the fork in the road. Mom said that this cake store make some classic cake and Mom really love it.

I encourage the entrance of the store. “welcome” old woman voice welcome me.

“annyeong” I greet her, she’s about 65 or 70 years old with her white hair but she looks happy. “can I buy some cake?”

“of course” she said. “you are the new kid right?” she ask me and I nod her “ur Umma already come here yesterday, does she want to buy some cake like yesterday?”

“yes please.. and make it 5 thank you”

“wait for a moment I’ll get it for you” she’s smile.

while she prepare my cake, I saw something weird out side the store. I see Hyukjae’s Mom talk to Heenim, However, unlike Hyukjae. Her mother seemed very familiar with Heenim, they are both laughing like mother and son talking. after that, Hyukjae’s mom go away and Heenim enter the store.

“Heenim ah!, where have you been?” this Grandma ask Heenim.

“Mianhae Grandma.. I have to fix my bike its broken” Heenim answer her. “you!” Heenim lil bit shock find me here.

“haish this boy!!” Grandma reprove heenim. “she is a buyer and respect her” she said. “Mianhae lil girl, this ugly boy is my grandchild” She’s introduce me to Heenim.

“grandma.. we already meet” Heenim explain to her.

“really?, good… I talk to her mother and we are agreed to meet you both, I see now… go sit for lil bit and I make you some tea ok”

“ah, granny…” I want to reject it but Heenim motioned for better I agree.

“she’s just an old woman, so its better if we do what she wanna we do” Heenim explain it to me while she make us some tea.

we took a seat on the patio behind the store, so it does not interfere with other buyer. silent in the moment and I start to talk.”Heenim Shi… I feel you’re different, you’re not like we first met” lil bit scare when I said this.

“this is who I am”

“owh..” just nod and drink tea. “this tea is so good!” I said and drink it again. Heenim watch me like find something on my expression. “what?”

“no…” silent at the moment. “when you say that this tea is so good, I remember of my bestfriend. he likes my Grandma tea too, he came often just to relax him self with drink my grandma tea” Heenim smile, I never see his smile. well… not in front of Hyukjae I guess.

“hmmm… ur bestfriend.. is that Hyukjae’s brother?” I ask him.

“how did you know?”

“I came to his room and find ur pic on his sketch book” I explain him and Heenim back to smile. “so.. hmm… if its ok.. can I ask you what’s wrong between you and Hyukjae?” Heenim look at me likes he can read my mind. “I better go if you dont like to see me here” before I wake up Heenim start say something.

“when I was kid… my Mom is passed away and my Appa turn into an alcoholic, he came visit me just to kick me, hit me no matter what I do, no matter if i’m wrong or not” Heenim smile lil bit. “I feeling so alone… then Jung-Soo and his family came as new neighbors just like you. Me and Jung-Soo have same situation our Appa hate us a lot”

Heenim lifted his head to see into the night sky try to remember something. “Jung-soo… he such a clever boys, he do art and I adore him, but his Appa want him as an athlete. finally Jung-soo give up with his dreams to be an artist and become an athlete” silent at the moment, now starring the wet grass. “he choose to be runner, suddently its mean, he want to run away from his life that he never wanted to be. but when Jung-Soo win, his Appa will give him a gitf, a gift that Jung-Soo never want to accept it” Heenim smile again.

“but when his Appa know that Jung-Soo do some art again, he change into an angry man. kick him, hit him, the same things like my Appa do to me. so Jung-Soo run to the lake and meet me there” Heenim sigh heavily and laugh. “you know.. Jung-Soo hate math and I always do his math , so he will do my art”

I start smiling too and curious about something. “is that Hyukjae know that his Appa hate his brother?” lil scared when I ask about this.

“neh… since Hyukjae born, he have… you know… he have a problem with his heart, weak heart. everyone hide anything from him, they family afraid there’s bad things will come if he know” Heenim explain. “but Hyukjae is a big fans of his brother!, he will run and calling ‘hyung-ah take me with you, hyung-ah drawing me something, hyung-ah hurry back I will waiting for you’ everyday.. and Jung-Soo love this kid, like he will protect his lil brother”

Heenim face turned to serious “one day, when we play on the lake… we find a gun”

“gun?” I repeat again, dont believe.

“ya.. a gun… a black tough gun, full with the bullet” Heenim starring his hand. “I can still feel it, when I first held it.. I dont know who’s gun is it or where this gun come from. but me and Jung-Soo start make some promise” Heenim eyes start to glaze. “we write some note… ahh… I dont remember, but we make some crazy list. who will we shoot with this gun, I wrote my Appa name and Jung-Soo’s Appa name”

Heenim laughing and his face turned again into sad face. “unlucky… one day Jung-Soo run to the lake meet me with angry face…

…..Flashback….

“yaa!! Jung-Soo what happend?” Heenim ask Jung-Soo but he don’t reply. “yaa!!” Heenim pull Jung-Soo hand.

“I hate him!! I hate him!! thats enough I cant handle this anymore!!” Jung-Soo start yalled.

“what?!!, what it is??!”

“he burn my sketch book, he burn everyting!! he find me draw something for Hyukjae!! look at this!! Look at this Heenim!!” Jung-Soo show Heenim his wound on his head, neck and his back. “tell me where is the gun?”

“JUNG-SOO!!” Heenim yell at Jung-Soo. “its not supposed to be like this! don’t be crazy!!”

“I am crazy!! I have to stop him!!”

“ya Jung-Soo!!” a big man voice came, Jung-Soo Appa run into him.

“Ahjussi I can explain what happend!!” Heenim try to banded Jung-Soo’s Appa.

“you!! I knew it from the start!! you make Jung-Soo in to a bad kids!!” Jung-Soo Appa push 16 years Heenim untill he drop to the ground. “thats the reason your Appa is an alcoholic!! because he have a devil child like you!!”

“APPA!!” Jung-Soo yelled his Appa and a gun is in his hand now. “don’t you dare talk like that to my bestfriend!!”

“Jong-Soo” Heenim staring Jung-Soo scared.

“I am your bestfriend!!”

“no you not!!” Jung-Soo start crying. “your the evil Dad!! if i was born again I swear I wont have a Dad like you!!”

“what did you said??!!” Jung-Soo’s Appa start angry.

“did you see??!! i’m not your son!! i’m your machine!! it just because Hyukjae is not a normal kid and you hate me?!! you blame everything to me!!!”

“stop it!!”

“you stop it!!” Jung-Soo really angry now. “does you ever ask me what I want? what I need? did you know I will kill you if i have a chance?!!”

“JUNG-SOO!! we can clear everything!!!” Heenim yelled to Jung-Soo.

“Heenim Shut up!!” while Jung-Soo answer Heenim, his Dad run in to him and stab him.

“Ahjussi stop It!!” Heenim try to pull Jung-Soo’s Dad as hard as he can, but in the munite they heard gunshot.

“AAARRGGGHHH!!! I HATE YOU!!!” Jung-Soo pull his Dad now, Heenim realize that gun just shot Jung-Soo’s Dad.

“Ahjussi” Heenim carry Jung-Soo’s Dad.

“let it be Heenim!!” Jung-Soo pull Heenim from his Dad. “he deserve it” Jung-Soo starring his dad.

“Jung-Soo…” call him with hoarseness it like he can’t breathe. “I know you hate me, but all I wanted is to be proud… because… because… your the one that I can count… and Heenim…”

“ahjussi” Heenim start cry now.

“forgive me…” he try to breathe. “both of you im sorry…” finally he can handle it again and die.

“WHAT DID YOU DO!!!” Heenim Push Jung-Soo.

“its revenge Heenim!! and I just clear anything!!”

“he is your Appa!!”

“no his not!!”

“you crazy Jung-Soo!!” Heenim starring his bestfriend, Jung-Soo quiet thinking of something.

“ya Heenim.. remember the secret note that we write together? about this gun, about the list that we will kill with this gun?” Jung-Soo eyes empty now. “I have two list, 1st is him” Jung-Soo point his Dad. “and the 2nd, the last is me” he smile.

“what?” Heenim cant thinking anymore. “Jung-Soo stop it!!”

“take care of Hyukjae, and dont let he cry, tell him i love him… I love my Umma too” Jung-Soo put a gun to his head.

“Jung-Soo!!! Noooo!!!” another gunshot sounded again and Jung-Soo kill him self.

……end of flashback……

“he leave me alone…” Heenim start disapointed. “Ahjuma come, and I said I’ll kill them… I show police my note list and they believe I am the killer”

“why you do that for?” I start crying.

“I cant broke Hyukjae’s dream about his perfect bother, I wont he know about this. Beside my Dad hate me and I dont have anyone again” Heenim wiped his eyes. “I was subjected to imprisonment for killing minor, yes im guilty but granny and Ahjuma know the truth. because of some evidence, punishment at ease”

“Heenim-Sshi”

“but Ahjuma is so nice to me, she never change and love me like he do love Jung-Soo. but we still hide anything from Hyukjae, thats the reason why he dont like me” Heenim cover his face. “dont look at me”

“its Ok Heenim-Sshi” I stand up and hug him from behind. “sometimes we cry to feel better” hug him warmly and lil bit guilty because I made him cry, its rare for me to see a boys crying.

This is the end of tonight, Heenim told me a lot of story about him and I find him feel so lonely, so I decide to call him “Oppa” since I dont have a brother. My Umma angry because im coming home late, she’s starvin waiting her cake.

author : Naa.Z

special thx to Super Junior and rainy days.

this is a fanfic of Super Junor cr by Naa.Z 2010